self, return, bright success, dancing with your Shadow
vision, genius, poetry, madness, inspiring light from unseen sources
… often Powerful Witness, rarely comfortable? Nope. Comfortable in empathy, the mode of Rock of Gibraltar mode always. It’s not about not taking it personally when someone rails, is it? If you care about them, it’s Rock of Gibraltar to the Ocean-speak receiving, especially when unsaid and hearing, ”Your words, not mine. About you, not me. And, I full-on understood you trusted enough to confess that about yourself. I’m still listening.” … of course within limits. Certainly, don’t put yourself in danger.
though, what is it YOU think and feel when receiving that?
Glad? And, nothing can be moved by the ocean, no matter how stormy, kinda thing? …
as the ocean, it needed to ebb and flow,
And sometimes more intensely than others.
And, the rock? It needed to listen.
Your job is simple, no less intense for it, though simple.
Listen. Isn’t that it?
What did I tell myself back then?
Keep it.
Though, listen…
Listen to what you didn’t say. And, then don’t… because you if you didn’t say it, you didn’t feel it. It never was. Don’t make things out of not-things. Instead…
Wisen your future experiences in the perpetual present by…
Don’t Dissolve.
Listen.
Connect.
What do you say when you’re gifted the opportunity to listen?
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Poseidon welled up through my 10th House Neptune~Mercury conjunction, dutifully commanded softly… well, as softly as Poseidon is able with the full force of Nature…
Stop crying. You’re wasting water.
You need that up here. All you have is your own now. All you have is you.
Keep it.
All you have is your own now. Keep it.
Your job is simple, no less intense for it, though simple.
Keep it.
Stop bowing. What message do you have for yourself IN this experience?
Feel it. Say it out loud. Hear it.
There’s only one way to honor it and allow it to develop in your Soul Garden and amend your soil without YOU being the fertilizer…
and wisen your future experiences in the perpetual present.
I Don’t Dissolve
I’m from the depths, and I know Hades, and I know you are now nowhere near dead. Just dead tired, beaten down with and only now you are
blood and sand and wind and cold.
If you don’t make it off this pile of rocks, your message will die on the vine. Then, no use to you. No, if you croak here and become a Bio class skeleton!…
Get up!!
Get up to KEEP IT!!
(c) 2010 Jordan Hoggard Her fully grounded out-of-body experience flying as high as her roots go deep
Yoniverse, fresh, nurturing, carrying to full term to bring to life, Great Mother
established, down-to-earth spirit, wisdom, new spirit, activation… on a bad day is the stubborn and unbending traditionalist
I Rose Up & Called Out
Death is the Mother of memory, organic fertilizer, nourishes dreams, ideas, intuitions, imagination. Death does not get me now except to amend the soil in the garden of ME, but not yet WITH me!
YES!, I AM MOST LIKELY GOING TO die today, turning back up to point at the unseen summit over several pitches, though I’m going to die going fuqin THAT way!
At the Top Again
At the top, still not yet having begun to down-climb in the dark from 14,363 feet to 10k+ to base camp. I didn’t make haste. I didn’t attempt to go straight back down to safety. I suddenly got in NO HURRY WHATSOEVER. And, I took a side trip. I ambled back up to the top. Why go down when I’m already here. Won’t be able to do this tomorrow. When in Rome!
I’m Here. Experience.
I’m here. Back to the top to sit. Not for long, though I need to rest. Can’t go to sleep. Wouldn’t wake up. Important. Don’t go to sleep. Like a concussion. Don’t go to sleep! Sit. Sit with the experience NOW.
Need to sit.
I walked back up from the pre-summit mini-plateau to the summit where I had been earlier, had penciled my name in on the log sheet in the plastic envelope now flap-smacking in the wind on the pole set in rocks almost mocking me. Then,
… Oh. You’re not mocking me. You’re waving my shoestring flag of being out on a limb. That’s ma flag.. Felt the groggy pushing. Thank you.
Well, certainly don’t pencil yourself in. Don;t allow yourself to be penciled in. Don’t do it in blood, either. Be fluid. Be direct. Oh dafuq, that’s a problem. I’m fuckin’ with myself. Big prob up here. That’s like desiccated hubris AT oneself. Not good. That tired. Too tired. Mind energy.No fighting. That’s a waste. Be. Experience. Continue.
Who was it, Brene Brown? Yes, Brene Brown expressed, Vulnerability is the birthplace of courage.
Though I may have caused a future need for Soul Retrieval that day for continually shedding whole beings of myself shedding-soul-dumping 6 times at least… l, moving slowly back up the scree field to drop weight away that day….
No. I didn’t Do that at all. Yes, I dropped whole portions of myself in positive liposuction to lighten, though, in doing I revealed myself to myself, my colors. And, 3+ years of bi-weekly/monthly Brainspotting 15 years later? I secured me back, back here WITH my imagination and creativity to come back anew. NOW! The snake my skin shedded. The snake my skin not missed for the splendor of my own colors found… the meaning is…
Experience
Across one afternoon and dusk and evening and night Where I became only blood and a sand and wind and cold… now around midnight… I found myself. I was blissful. A bit deluded and/or out of sorts I’m sure. Though, I found myself. And then? I came to. I didn’t lose all the beauty of the transcendence. Not. At. All. AND. I also found myself in seriously intense trouble. Hmmmm, so I found myself in trouble.
And,
I don’t dafuqin waste trouble, that ‘s for sure. THAT woke me up from places beyond exhaustion. Sitting there at the summit… My SOP M.O. of DON’T WASTE TROUBLE came back on line.
Feel it. Hear it inside. I feel it. I hear it deep inside like a grown building to the beast that is me. (NO ! Need with a beast. They already are). Step back and open to resonance and space to expand until it settles. Settling. Full on chaos of Nature inside, settles, deep water silently flowing, and top of lake made of glass. Top lake of glass. The top of the lake is now made of glass, so STAND UP! Now, say it.
I’m still surprised I didn’t fall asleep up there that exhausted, though. Surprised and not that I came to. Though, how could I not? I was only half way through on the long road home. Until you’re off, you’re still on. Knock me dafuq completely out, or I’m still a problem, as the saying goes. When you’re alive, you always have something to be alive for… if none other than that you are… alive.
Keep it, I heard again. Softly at first.
Adversity doesn’t build character. It reveals it. ~ James Lane Allen’s words came through, and…
Keep it, I…
oh, no voice. All dried out. I don’t waste trouble!, I thought, so…
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I feel there is an almost shamanistic quality to feeling someone’s intensity in their presence, through the universe of their eyes, that wholly intense beauty of Nature’s power itself spoken in the eyes or the place, genius loci. Beauty is ablution. Presence is ablution. Youth and age and craggy-faced memories telling stories are ablution. Intensity comes around to focus, conscious or unconscious, and immersion.
There’s a purity I feel in Intensity, and honesty. An honesty like Nature’ll kill ya, and it will also support and embrace you very much when you find your own Nature within. Do we really never get there? Are we there yet? Nah, I feel we get there all the time. Any inspiration or big smile or torrential cry… those are temporary glimpses of how YOU are enlightening.
Like sunbeams coming through the trees. And, it’s not poisoned by experience. I feel enlightenment is tempered by it. Not saying I’m enlightened, though I’ve had plenty of Hanged Man Moments so to speak you are CERTAIN their might not be a way off the mountain of the experience so to speak.
Though, maybe it’s not 100% uncut identity that is intense, as that’s not intensity, that’s potency. Like cranberry juice. At 100%, uncut, it’s toxic. Legally, it has to be mixed with apple juice or other. There it is. Immersion in intensity is…:
Immersion is ablution. ~ Jordan Hoggard
Here’s a link to my Pinterest board, Presence As Architecture. Happy, sad, glad, mad, pensive, joyous, dangerous, etc etc. These people, animals, places, and things strike me with their presence as being Natural. That gets me every time. It’s like sharing a hot spring, or a forest path. The people and animals and places and thing in these pictures haven’t said a damn thing to me, with words, and they may have just told me all I need to know… Each and every one of them. People, places, and things. Animals. Call ‘em nouns. Except these nouns? I’m fairly certain these Nouns have consumed their share of verbs.
Instead of saying Enjoy!, I’ll not color it with anything other than me expressing a portion of my perspective above, and to say, Experience what you feel when you visit these Verb Eaters who I feel have… Presence As Architecture.
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What is ImaginAction?
It is a very portable divination method like an App for the Imagination. You may not even need cards. Or, cards/tools/charms/lots/runes. And, of course you can simply intensify reading using your fave tools. You may find you are able to simply scry into the artwork as you immerse yourself in the ablution sanctuaries of the questions on each of the 78 full-color Life Mapping spreads… 78 times how many? Let’s just say a lot of them… uh, maybe even several more than that.
Maat weighs heart against a feather at the afterlife (of an idea, too), scaled balance of Natural consequences, internal balance, external workability fully valuing consequent responsibilities, swift closure from Isness, Nature’ll kill ya, Nature’ll also love you very much when it’s Your Life Your Way with ImaginAction
techne, making, putting together fully, giving form to the formless, Inner Guardian, bring your life and goals and dreams to actionable life with ImaginAction
Astro: 12 degrees 16 min Taurus Sun conjunct Mercury and Uranus (Shaking things up by Naturally tellin’ it straight up = catalyzing like the ambrosia smell of an Asian Lily in bloom), 29 degrees 52 min Leo Moon Cusp Virgo, Cap ASC, Gemini DESC. And, full-on Scorpio Moira (deep depths of the internal sense of time and timing). Moira’s my favorite asteroid. She intensely and naturally wise like a Queen has a Fool level of developed intuition. Call Moira Living Time, your internal sense of time. She’s Saturn’s (Chronos/Kronos — chronological time) wife, though let’s not hold that against her, ok? Chiron is Saturn’s son, though I’m a little mixed on who his mother really is. Mythical beings work like that. Let’s just say that at higher octaves Chiron full-on has either a Southern Mom or StepMom as a rockin’ best friend… uh hem… who ALSO both play the rockin’ Mercury~Uranus conjunction described above with wonderful sense of humor right there integrated with their wit and wisdom.
ImaginAction has a packed 1st House, and As well all planets are in its Natal Chart’s Night Sky indicating naturally integrated depths present to work with. This isn’t talents to be developed into abilities. This indicated native abilities fully-formed at birth to be tracked into and with and experienced and to put into play to develop higher octaves of the Astro Sign with ALL of its components in play all the time — even if they are Silent in meditation, that is still present, still present like Presence As Architecture. Here, for Yours.
The Moon at any given time is then a wonderful tool for discernment In this Natal Chart. The Moon will also be an intense driver to hand the reins to for continually updating your clarity of vision and accurate-itize your feelings in the serendipitous ebb-n-flow of the Moon’s influence of how directions are utilized and immersed in and directed as if without thought or will, Naturally.
The Moon in ImaginAction’s Natal Chat will certainly be a second hand on the watch of this Chart, though do please nestle in. It’s not just a molecular second hand. There is a deceptive simplicity to the small here. Minor irritants make pearls with oysters. This Chart, though, will kick out irritant grains of sand and rather supplant influence that has acumen as its form-givers of pearls. It has no place In itself to transform and rationalize negativity. It is beyond not tolerating it. It simply won’t. Dance Club not on the list is a solid example of its Isness. It can Transform sand into pearls over time, though it won’t. It will will conscientiously use ‘No’ as a complete sentence in this regard. Or, maybe that’s one word to many? Yes. It is.It will lead-off with its consummate M.O. It will pearl-make with robustly resonant influences So long as its present.
This Natal Chart does not have intolerance in the least. It has higher octaves to integrate in ways such that they appear to be present without thought or will. Sure, there’s lots of work going in the background, lots of thought and will and heartfelt feeling, though this Natal Chart will chalk all that up to process… will chalk all that up to dispense with speaking about the blood and sweat and tears. THey will be more about how something comes across.
Intention is important. It’s also vastly over-rated. It is simply far more important the way an idea comes across. ~ Jordan Hoggard
ImaginAction’s Natal Chart
I included transits just to instill good habits, facilitate an understanding of zero-variables of potential to not be blind-sided when they do begin to appear and develop their relationships. Of course after a month, spare few gigs have moved so currently it’s mostly moot except for the Moon and…, though there is also often deceptive simplicity in subtlety, of being aware of the planetary gigs blipping their BEEP on your radar.
It is a very portable divination method like an App for the Imagination. You may not even need cards. Or, cards/tools/charms/lots/runes. And, of course you can intensify your ImaginAction sessions using your fave tools. You may find you are able to simply scry into the artwork as you immerse yourself in the ablution sanctuaries of the questions on each of the 78 full-color Life Mapping spreads… 78 times how many? Let’s just say a lot of them… uh, maybe even several more than that.
How Long is ImaginAction?
102 pages inside a form-giving original watercolor art cover, 78 of the pages in full-color. Immersive divination spreads, a Creation Story, and a super easy How-To. You know, Super Easy. So easy it gets a cape.
Though, instead of how long
I ask: How dense and wide and expansive is ImaginAction’s value for you after downloading and working with it?
ImaginAction,
Happy 1-Month Birthday!
Moira’s Blessings,
Jordan
ImaginAction Sample Spread. 1 of 78. All, visceral and verdant and vibrant.
The Body Electric Tarot Spread. (c) 2012 Jordan Hoggard
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Thank you!
Happy Birthday to ImaginAction!
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I look forward to what ImaginAction feels like from YOUR perspective.
Maat weighs heart against a feather at the afterlife (of an idea, too), scaled balance of Natural consequences, internal balance, external workability fully valuing consequent responsibilities, swift closure from Isness, Nature’ll kill ya, Nature’ll also love you very much when it’s Your Life Your Way with ImaginAction
techne, making, putting together fully, giving form to the formless, Inner Guardian, bring your life and goals and dreams to actionable life with ImaginAction
Astro: 12 degrees 16 min Taurus Sun conjunct Mercury and Uranus (Shaking things up by Naturally tellin’ it straight up = catalyzing like the ambrosia smell of an Asian Lily in bloom), 29 degrees 52 min Leo Moon Cusp Virgo, Cap ASC, Gemini DESC. And, full-on Scorpio Moira (deep depths of the internal sense of time and timing). Moira’s my favorite asteroid. She intensely and naturally wise like a Queen has a Fool level of developed intuition. Call Moira Living Time, your internal sense of time. She’s Saturn’s (Chronos/Kronos — chronological time) wife, though let’s not hold that against her, ok? Chiron is Saturn’s son, though I’m a little mixed on who his mother really is. Mythical beings work like that. Let’s just say that at higher octaves Chiron full-on has either a Southern Mom or StepMom as a rockin’ best friend… uh hem… who also both play the rockin’ Mercury~Uranus conjunction described above with wonderful sense of humor right there integrated with their wit and wisdom.
ImaginAction has a packed 1st House, and As well all planets are in its Natal Chart’s Night Sky indicating naturally integrated depths present to work with. This isn’t talents to be developed into abilities. This indicated native abilities fully-formed at birth to be tracked into and with and experienced and to put into play to develop higher octaves of the Astro Sign with ALL of its components in play all the time — even if they are Silent in meditation, that is still present, still present like Presence As Architecture. Here, for Yours.
The Moon at any given time is then a wonderful tool for discernment In this Natal Chart. The Moon will also be an intense driver to hand the reins to for continually updating your clarity of vision and accurate-itize your feelings in the serendipitous ebb-n-flow of the Moon’s influence of how directions are utilized and immersed in and directed as if without thought or will, Naturally.
The Moon in ImaginAction’s Natal Chat will certainly be a second hand on the watch of this Chart, though do please nestle in. It’s not just a molecular second hand. There is a deceptive simplicity to the small here. Minor irritants make pearls with oysters. This Chart, though, will kick out irritant grains of sand and rather supplant influence that has acumen as its form-givers of pearls. It has no place In itself to transform and rationalize negativity. It is beyond not tolerating it. It simply won’t. Dance Club not on the list is a solid example of its Isness. It can Transform sand into pearls over time, though it won’t. It will will conscientiously use ‘No’ as a complete sentence in this regard. Or, maybe that’s one word to many? Yes. It is.It will lead-off with its consummate M.O. It will pearl-make with robustly resonant influences So long as its present.
This Natal Chart does not have intolerance in the least. It has higher octaves to integrate in ways such that they appear to be present without thought or will. Sure, there’s lots of work going in the background, lots of thought and will and heartfelt feeling, though this Natal Chart will chalk all that up to process… will chalk all that up to dispense with speaking about the blood and sweat and tears. THey will be more about how something comes across.
Intention is important. It’s also vastly over-rated. It is simply far more important the way an idea comes across. ~ Jordan Hoggard
ImaginAction’s Natal Chart
I included transits just to instill good habits, facilitate an understanding of zero-variables of potential to not be blind-sided when they do begin to appear and develop their relationships. Of course after a month, spare few gigs have moved so currently it’s mostly moot except for the Moon and…, though there is also often deceptive simplicity in subtlety, of being aware of the planetary gigs blipping their BEEP on your radar.
It is a very portable divination method like an App for the Imagination. You may not even need cards. Or, cards/tools/charms/lots/runes. And, of course you can simply intensify reading using your fave tools. You may find you are able to simply scry into the artwork as you immerse yourself in the ablution sanctuaries of the questions on each of the 78 full-color Life Mapping spreads… 78 times how many? Let’s just say a lot of them… uh, maybe even several more than that.
How Long is ImaginAction?
102 pages inside a form-giving original watercolor art cover, 78 in full-color. Immersive divination spreads, a Creation Story, and a super easy How-To. You know, Super Easy. So easy it gets a cape.
Though, instead of how long
I ask: How dense and wide and expansive is ImaginAction’s value for you after downloading and working with it?
What color will your ImaginAction cape be?
ImaginAction,
Happy 1-Month Birthday!
Moira’s Blessings,
Jordan
ImaginAction Sample Spread. 1 of 78. All, visceral and verdant and vibrant.
The Body Electric Tarot Spread. (c) 2012 Jordan Hoggard
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who you were when you were born, Self, return, identity, bright success in context
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supportive, prosperity, storied conversation
Each Birth
Death is the Mother of memory, till-nurturing the soil of future dreams From the perpetual present.
Always now. Always now. A false sense of urgency is not warranted. A presence to the process of the journey Comfortable in the not-knowing, Where forgetting, is for getting, Makes more room for the good stuff, Is…
May the ground rise up to support your every step. Especially, those steps where there was no ground as you began to step, Your Fool Step stepped into your Inner Solar System As you cascade outwards In your actions,
And orbit into your realm from your actionable orbits More ground to support Your every Leap of faith step.
Memory is dream? Dream is memory? Death is the Mother of memory, till-nurturing the soil of future dreams From the perpetual present.
Both live in the perpetual present, And simply enter from different portals, Though they certainly enter,
Memory fueling the present That nourishes every future dream,
Each birth, Each birth is brilliant in its age.
“Some knowledge and some song and some beauty must be kept for those days before the world again plunges into darkness.“ ~ Marion Zimmer Bradley ~”
Death is the Mother of memory, till-nurturing the soil of future dreams From the perpetual present.
Always now. Always now. A false sense of urgency is not warranted. A presence to the process of the journey Comfortable in the not-knowing, Where forgetting, is for getting, Makes more room for the good stuff, Is…
May the ground rise up to support your every step. Especially, those stepswhere there was no ground as you began to step, Your Fool-Step stepped into your Inner Solar System As you cascade outwards In your actions,
And orbit into your realm from your actionable orbits More ground to support Your every Leap of faith step.
Memory is dream? Dream is memory? Death is the Mother of memory, till-nurturing the soil of future dreams From the perpetual present.
Both live in the perpetual present, And simply enter from different portals, Though they certainly enter,
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Immerse in the sanctuaries of questions As you steep in the artwork.
Ever try scrying with questions while swimming in Ablution Pools?
You tell me. ImaginAction, Your Life, Your Way.
I’ll step back, though, to give ImaginAction the berth its birth deserves.
I extend a…
Letter to ImaginAction
You graduated from me, from my deep well, fully formed.
I am now in Empathic Silent, powerfully witnessing what you grew up to be. The Silence of fluid fluency flowing in and through and around The A U M of your ImaginAction voice is mine no longer. It is yours.
Now, made by, though unfettered by my creative armatures while making you, you make your way into the world.
The death of process into your completion is fertilizer for your future, Mother of Your Memory. Now, as I bow back to my well to create, joyful and ecstatic I birthed you,
I smile and settle and open the space for you to emanate all of your own accord.
ImaginAction, your fluid fluency is now yours.
I gift you the respectful space to speak for yourself.
Moira’s Blessings,
Jordan
Sample of one of the 78 Divination Spreads
The Body Electric Tarot Spread. (c) 2012 Jordan Hoggard
ImaginAction is like a big, wonderfully fleshed out sandbox for you to have tools to actionably achieve your wishes and goals and dreams, much like The Sun card Is all about you, as only you can be
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I Dedicate this Blog Post to Dr. Martin Luther King, assassinated 52 years ago on April 5th, 1967.
May his memory and energy and work and wisdom be blessings and inspirations to enhance and reinforce and strengthen inroads within each of us to strengthen the fabric of our human community, together.
(Formatting a bit unjuiced from copy and paste. And, Autocorrect often writes thing fo me that I didn’t Nintendo. No apologies for that. Proof-reading goes to far places to be clear, and then AutoCorrect can be a bully to fluidly writing. 🙂 )
Jordan Hoggard
Krigsgaldr. Rather than war and violence, I felt the Powerful ritual and process over ages of shamanic dismemberment finding Self. Regardless of the words I embrace and resonate with to put to it, the visual story may very well come across to everyone in an ‘all similar, each unique’ way as much as we are All different, like everyone else. Powerful. An epic movie short.
Holly Troy
“the shamanic dismemberment finding Self” – I feel like so many of us are going through this right now. Or we can allow this global strange time to be this, the rite of passage to the Self.
Holly Troy
“the shamanic dismemberment finding Self” – I feel like so many of us are going through this right now. Or we can allow this global strange time to be this, the rite of passage to the Self.
the theme continues . . .
Jordan Hoggard
Yes, and not to be smug or condescending in any way, though what I most enjoy In this time about that, is that that rite of passage to the Self, the child becoming the parent of the Man, The Temple In (Wo)Man and Temple Of (Wo)Man occurred for me in 1991 during my architectural thesis in a psychospiritual set of experiences over 3 months brought forth by my thesis itself, a house for me — catalyzed by my whole life up to that point realizing things I had taken responsibility for, though shouldn’t have (parent’s divorce 15 years prior) — and will continue to occur in small and large ways throughout the rest of my life. This time, now, is gifting me a more unfettered sense of clarity in action. Rather than kneeling at the Altar of Self, I am more reverently seeing the world, and ironically enough, notice I don’t cuss so much now.
Jordan Hoggard
Add, Truthfully, I kinda miss the cussing. It’s amazing the molecular things we adapt to that can cause change across the board. The cussing was actually a barb or poison of sorts. It wasn’t seen that way then, though now, there’s a diff tenor to the poetry of it. Adaptation, part of change, part of process, part of slow-form evolution.
Jordan Hoggard
New comment, as in a sense it belays my last…
Something about the living petroglyphs in the Krigsgaldr video, something about your post, something about my comments above now expressed out here, something about the people I’ve interacted with here since I came out of a 5+-year radio silence… expressed and birthed and framed a new perspective for me.
Yes, rite of passage in 1991, very powerfully. And, yes many many crushing and spendorous things between then and now. Though, 5 years ago, out of necessity, I took a J.O.B. As Director of Purchasing & Coordination for a company 5 years ago — the people are great, and it’s a solid 2-way street. I won;t mention the company name, as… ya know… work-life balance. This is my work, and that is also my work. Though, this is in support of what I need in life. And, I started 3+ years of bi-weekly Brainspotting Therapy/Counseling. Someone recently expressed to me, “DAYum. Hard core.” I tend to go all in like that. It’s simply my Nature which I find wonderfully cool and resonant.
2 weeks before the shutdown, I was startled awake be a feeling of celebration. Still very liminal, still very ??? Dafuq???, though it was there. Being awakened to the resonance with a high honor given to me several years before — my deck listed 39 out of 50 Top Most Essential Decks (Of all time) by The Tarosophy Tarot Association. Like to took me that long to own it and just say, “Thank you.” Which, of course I had before, though felt a consummate “Thank you” to myself in that liminal moment.
I sat there in the dark. Steeped in it without words or figuring out what this meant. I only had the feeling of, “don’t pollute this with words. There’s more here than you know.”
And, it came. A creative Ex. Not that I broke up with it, just that in 2012 it was complete, and now suddenly as it came rushing forth to greet me, only semi-complete, it had evolved from its chrysalis to unfurl its wings. 8 years of unconscious gestation? Yup, at least to me. It had been active, though, providing its own formative years to itself. It was the 78 Divination Spreads inspired by my art, though now… Now, it came with the same name alluded to in my Tarot deck and book. ImaginAction.
So, two weeks before the 3/19 – 3/20 shutdown, I turned back to wade into this intense pool of my own creation. And yes, with a bit of trepidation in, “Am I creatively strong enough to not get consumed?, and Fantasia style wand it and conduct it into… hmmm, what am I conducting?, and into what?”
The 11-page Creation story spilled out of me as if I was taking dictation, was a story I’d reverently kept to myself, never spoken of before. The 10-page easy-to-use How-To method just tracked 1 by 1 by 1 start to finish to… enter into several hundred hours of file prep to set up to assemble the pdf for consistency start to finish. I had woken up to start to finish a project not even on my radar until then. Isn’t the not-knowing and going with its serendipity grand?!! And, Voila! There it was. ImaginAction.
Thing is. ImaginAction may be the biggest, most wonderfully robust thing I’ve ever created, though that’s not where I am going here in this comment.
Something about the living petroglyphs in the Krigsgaldr video, something about your post, something about birthing ImaginAction, something about my comments above now expressed out here, something about interacting with people who currently inspire me beyond my historical friends (My Friend Fred for example) and something about a shift that just occurred now, and was seemingly always occurring throughout the past milestone cairn that was building itself over the last 8 weeks… expressed and birthed and framed a new perspective for me.
That perspective. I haven’t had fear and anxiety about this pandemic. At all. In fact, I;ve come into joy and excitement, and not the Freudian minor hysteria type. I even felt a bit ashamed and tentative at one point that I shouldn’t express what I felt as it might seem to demean the vast and real feelings of fear and grief others were legitimately and strugglingly going through. Though, that wasn’t what I was going through, and I came to terms with the experiential fact that these things aren’t relative. Each of us grieves differently, and each of us grieves differently each time. And, I should in no way apologize for feeling that something clicked, and I resoundingly opened to my way. LOL. I came out so to speak in regards to the gravity of my ideas, even if for none other than myself, to love my work again.
That perspective is that. It is what it is. Sometime around two weeks before this all this shit hit the fan across the human community, I woke up and nestled in to seat in myself and my work again. And, more naturally This time. And, dare I say, though feel it to be so… I may have just seated another natural notch into the Heartfelt Hierophant of my Soul Seat. That sure goes to 11.
Thank you for being part of that. You and Paul and other wonderful people I have interacted with have provided a perspective from you continuing your work through these times, and adapting. That’s part and party to my nestling in to… not a 6-speed turbo convertible This time, or my current car, which LOL needs brakes… nestling in to seat in myself, soulfully, and actively through my creative works.
Thank you Holly & Paul. Thank you for being part of stacking the stones of this milestone cairn time. And, thank you to you other 6 who plussed my sense of the world being wonderful, especially if you didn’t know you were.
I place no “What they do” here. I wouldn’t want to pigeon-hole your serendipity. Check them out. Poke around, and look at the breadth they offer. Heck, potatoe chips? More substantial than that, though still can’t have just one. I suggest to explore them. Enjoy the serendipity of what you find…
Click the title to download ImaginAction at no charge
The pdf is 18MB. Depending on your connection, it may take a bit. Again, no charge. My intent is not that it’s free. No charge, and you determine the value. Download for nada. Please tip at BuyMeACoffee and/or comment and/or Like the post AFTER you’ve had an opportunity to work with it. And, on your own time. No fuss, no rush. You decide its value to you in your own good time, in your way. Money currency, the currency of liking, commenting, sharing, re-blogging. I simply ask tht you value ImaginAction in your own way, even if that’s simply looking out the window and smiling from it if you do. That kind of thing, that kind of energy put out there makes to world a better place to be.
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I look forward to what ImaginAction feels like from YOUR perspective.
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