SI: 9/25 Serendipity Itinerary

24 Sep
SI: 9/25 Serendipity Itinerary

Your September 25th, 2020 SI, with the Moon exiting its journey through Capricorn to go Void of Course at 11:36p today, Friday 9/25, to re-emerge Direct in Aquarius at 2:08a in the wee hours of Saturday 9/26. The Moon will be direct in Aquarius through the weekend to enter its next Void of Course Astro Sign Interstice Monday 9/28 at 3:18a. All times given are EST In the USA.

Take the opportunity to engage in activities that you are both good at and love in a more free-spirited and possibly even a little eccentric way to blow out the pipes and refresh yourself for stronger re-connection with your loves. Take some time to NOT stay in your lane with yourself and get off-trail where Nature homes the great stuff.

Nevermind your mastery. Admitting mastery is no braggart or ego statement. The Master has failed more times than the student has tried. And, mastery leads to further discovery.

This weekend is a great time to discover things you otherwise would not have if you went through tried and true compulsory motions. Get off the figure eight technique in the corner and out on the ice or the track with some VROOM and fly a little. Duct tape a seat cushion to your toosh. That might make sense. The times you fall will be more fun when it’s more of a ploomp of a plop-bounce than a crash. And, when you don’t fall, the cushion might make for some great laughs.

Laughter is the shortest distance between people.

~ Victor Borge

Serendipity Itineraries

If you are new to Serendipity Itineraries, you can go click here to check out the intro to see what it’s all about. Come on back once you have, as… We’ll wait. Let’s get this serendipity party started, shall we?!

Your Tarot Birth Cards for 9/25/2020

Justice* ~ High Priestess

* I placed Justice at VIII and Strength at XI in Tarot in the Land of Mystereum, so don’t be thrown by the number VIII on Justice

Excellent Birth Card Pair to continually embrace change as you engage with your established identity.

What are Your Tarot Birth Cards?

Click to find your Tarot Birth Cards here at the Tarot School in NYC. Ruth Ann & Wald Amberstone have a great set of offerings and info, in addition to just being rockin’ people who run The Tarot School in NYC!

And, if you want to explore Tarot Birth Cards more, please visit my 9-Part Birth-Placing Identity Series.

This Week

It’s a #2 day today, so here are two 2-themed videos:

Mystereum Tarot Moment 2 of Pentacles.

May your most crucial connections sync up this week.

1 min 02 sec


Mystereum Tarot and The Twos

2 min 24 sec

I have plans to produce videos for the other suits, plus individual number card groupings, the Courts, and of course the Majors.

Tarot Voice Prompt Exercise

How do YOU roll when it matters? How’s your timing? Center, settle, click record on your phone, and Action. Speak about the 4 of Pentacles in your voice from your perspective. Is there a lifetime of wisdom in YOUR 59-second tip of the iceberg? Try it. Close your eyes and play yourself back. What do you hear, and how does it come across to you? Do you hear anything new? What do the highs and lows of your voice tell you? What about the flow? Dance like no one’s watching, click record, and speak like no one’s listening. Share what happens if you like.

Writing Prompt Exercise

Look out the window. Go Inside and look out the window… look out the window of yourself (Temple of You) for 1min 02sec seconds, and record yourself on your phone or a tape recorder, Or Morse Code, however you roll. Ask yourself: What does the outside look like from inside the windows to the Soul of my eyes? Does the world reflect me, or shall I inspect my expectations so I see what really is? How will you allow this inform your perspective?

What does Your short time 1m 02sec say? Cool, now that your warmed up, do it several times if you feel to, What’s your longer lap time? What do you say in 2min 24sec? Will you give it a try? Comment please if you care to share. I hope you’re pleasantly surprised what wonderful Tarot gifts you may just unpack for yourself With these short exercises.

Carrie Paris is the Video Producer on my Mystereum Tarot Moments series from 2012-2013. Check out her beautiful site!

Again, This Week, A Meditative Suggestion in Regards to This Week’s Music Selections

Rather than listen to the words as being from one person to another, or the artist to you or to another, will you allow the words to be yours spoken to you and your internal community? As if a play produced about you? Some of them may fall flat and not apply. Then again, some may spark something inside with this listening exercise. Dance along to your play if you feel to. Give it a go, and see what happens when you turn poetry/lyrics inward to speak to yourself as if they orginated from you to you.

Digital Daggers ~ Nothing’s Broken

Ruelle ~ Hold Your Breath

Au/Ra ~ Dance in the Dark

Patti Smith ~ Horses

There Are 2 Musical Pairs for You + Here’s the Bonus Blast From the Past. So Cool that this resurfaced.

Resurfaced from the cardboard box treasure chest they slept through their long-form perennial slumber…

The Halfbreeds Lost Tapes from Holly Troy

Like Tapas for gettin’ movin’! Click here

Ok, I couldn’t resist. There felt no reason to. Gratuitous add. This has become a Go-To. Their chemistry is just HAWT

Here We Go into Your Serendipity Itinerary for September 25th

Serendipity Itinerary Sites

Most everyone below has excellent new posts this week! Think you’ve seen them before? Me, too. Then, there was this week. The vibe felt quieter Again this week, though longer looking, and maybe intensities were simply wonderful in balance. Expansive even in simple expressions. I suggest take 2 you are familiar with and revisit. Then I-Ching ’em and run your own Serendipity Itinerary to 2 that are new to you. Another great week.

Enjoy Your SI

Charlescearl’s Weblog ~ Musings on fascinating things. Important and fascinating things well said. Charles not only thinks things through, he lives them through. You can feel it in his writing. Don’t go for the writing. Go for experience you will remember. Indelible is a word, and a good one with Charles’ weblog. Please share his recent Black in AI 2020 Call for Papers post to magnetize others who might not have otherwise been aware of the opportunity to advance the AI (Artificial Intelligence) community.

Author Melissa Crismon ~ Oceans of Love. Melissa is the author of the MerSea series about a conservationist mermaid. Painting in her mom’s studio, studying modern dance, and playing the pedal harp informed her childhood. A bachelor’s degree in visual and performing arts made sense. From angelic harpist to romance author, Melissa began writing as a theatre reviewer for local and online media.Her Golden-State-of-the-Art Blog started out as a California arts blog that covered a lot of theatre, but rolls with the punches and has expanded to the vegan lifestyle.

Martha Ann Kennedy’s Blog ~ I’m A Writer, Yes, I Am! Her recent post Through the Looking Glass from The Global Exclaimer is powerful and full-on apt about this racism disease going around more powerfully in this current time where the Civil War is like the EverReady Bunny just going and going and going — like it seethed under the surface for over a century, the internal war that never ended. About Martha: After thirty years teaching writing in San Diego, in 2014, I returned to live in my home state, Colorado. I live in the remote, beautiful and mysterious San Luis Valley. All my life, I’ve been a writer. Sometimes, I’m also a painter, but I am always a hiker.

Scott Parker-Anderson ~ Waldina. Waldina was my maternal great-grandmother. Her life story has inspired generations of our family. I write about what inspires me.

Andrea Badgley ~ Butterfly Mind. Creative Nonfiction by Andrea Badgley. Andrea Badgley holds a B.S. in Ecology, but left that field to raise children and write. Her Butterfly Mind blog reflects her inclination to flit. Her work appears in Southern Women’s Review, on the Brevity blog, and on The Daily Post. You can also follow her on Twitter @andreabadgley

Anne Elise ~ MBTI Journey. Life is a journey, not a destination. – Ralph Waldo Emerson. Welcome to MBTI Journey! If you want to embark on a journey of personal growth and self-discovery then this is the site for you. Through MBTI and this blog you will learn more about yourself, the people you love, and even the people you don’t understand.

purplepeninportland ~ Sharing Poetry and Hugs. I am a freelance poet, born and bred in Brooklyn, New York. I live with my husband, John, and two charming rescue dogs–Marion Miller and Murphy. We spent eight lovely years in Portland, OR, but are now back in New York. My goal is to create and share poetry with others who write, or simply enjoy reading poetry. I hope to touch a nerve in you, and feel your sparks as well.

Mr. Purrington ~ Carl Jung Depth Psychology. Life, work and legacy of Carl Jung.

Fernando Kaskais ~ by F. Kaskais. The Esoteric Meaning Behind Neo’s Interrogation in The Matrix.

Deborah Bridge, PhD. ~ Soul Tending. Depth Psychologist.

Becca Tarnas, PhD ~ Scholar, artist, and counseling astrologer, Becca is the editor of Archai: The Journal of Archetypal CosmologyShe received her PhD in Philosophy and Religion at the California Institute of Integral Studies in San Francisco. Her dissertation is titled The Back of Beyond: The Red Books of C.G. Jung and J.R.R. Tolkien

Keith’s SecondVoice ~ African Poetry. I found Keith’s work last week. He liked a comment I made on another’s blog, don’t remember which as I clicked right through to his site. Wonderfully powerful, muscular language full of grit and flow and resonance and well-played metaphor that is apt and expressive and clear. Check out Keith’s recent Skyscraper post. It starts with a wicked cool image, and keeps going from there.

Janet Rudolph ~ Feminism and Religion. Thoughtful. Poignant. Meaningful. Janet plays the depths with her tune. Both-And is embraced, and though either/or is not dismissed, it is seemingly most often precluded by her forthright and engaged gesture. Janet posts from a deep well. Want some thought that has meaning and place and is engaged? Cool. Then, please visit her work.

Jessica Hundley ~ Author of The Library of Esoterica by Taschen Books, 2020. Check out her beautiful books. Multi-talented with developed abilities in each: Author, Journalism (remember that word anyone?), Copywriter, Producer, Creative Director, Director. I am honored to have been included in her newest release from Taschen Books, The Library of Esoterica.

Holly Troy ~ Cosmic Holly. musings of a psychedelic punk rock renaissance yogini and late-blooming athlete. Perennial Gemini in bloom. Naturalized. Excellent garden with music, too! Creative voice in multiple formats. Tarot. Astrology. Music. Writing. Life. Is she a Polymath, having multiple areas of expertise? Go see. She also has a session series entitled Co-Creating With the Cosmos that I recommend.

Ian Bryant ~ Tarot Sushi. A place for all things Tarot and More! Excellent and clear and depthful writing voice with full-on proetic substance. Creative writing steeped in poetry, nourishing soul food for imagination and creative expression. And, I’m honored Ian is using my Tarot in the Land of Mystereum deck and 192-page companion book as a creative writing prompter.

Laleh Chini ~ A Voice From Iran. Check and inspect your expectations at the door. The storytelling, short stories, fables, and folk tales will… well, you’ll see. I recently received her book and am looking forward to posting a review in the near future. I’m still adjusting to being this busy again, and I’m not going to rush out a review of Laleh’s wonderful work. I’m currently immersed in reading Climbing Over Grit, and without spoilers I can indefatigably express… YES!!!! A more robust review is coming soon, and I so look forward to dial into those words. Mini-review here.

M K MacInnes ~ Talking of inner journeys, since PSYCHOSYNTHESIS is a major theme in my work, I have devoted an entire page to signposting readers who are interested in finding out more about it.

Donna’s Poetry Blog ~ Hope. Courage. Poetry. Faith. Love. An experiential read that is well worth it.

Adriana Tedoro Dier, DMA ~ True Guidance Tarot. Adriana is Spiritual Healer and Medium. Her prophetic gifts and insight into the past deliver the messages essential for your healing journey. Her heart-centered approach and accurately channeled messages from Spirit stimulate your body, mind, and spirit to new levels of growth. You will find your way guided with relevant, powerful, spiritual truths and practical steps.

Lizrose93 ~ elizabeth rose psychic and tarot. This post with the image of the painting with Echo and Narcissus + Liz’s mention of the Phoenix catalyzed me to forget the story for getting The gift of telling it differently. Visit her site for the Astrology, though don’t be surprised when you receive a larger takeaway than what you came for. I received a retelling from myself of a story that brought it into modern discussions.

Karen Sealey ~ The Pure & Blessed Tarot. ~ Riding the cusp between imagination and reality. The Discarded Oracle is coming to life! Check it out on Pinterest! And, other rockin’ ramblings and Rantras and musings with no pulled punches, and lots of exquisite surprises along the way. THIS is a site to watch.

Bonnie Hubly ~ Watercolors on Pinterest. Full and robust and full of feeling with fluid fluency and flow in execution. Majestic Watercolors. Organic placements, artful scenes. Gorgeous.

Trini Lind ~ Paths of the Spirit. Create a path of Light with your Life. Wonderful perspective. Deceptively simple drawings that I find magically evocative. No one trick pony here.

House of Ari. Sharing a personal exploration of gender in Sweden. Up front and honest and insightful as the experience and process of this self-induced rite of passage unfolds. I respect when people swim in their own crucible to discern and come to a more resonant relationship with themselves. It can be swimming in magma at times, though isn’t that how crystals and geodes are made? Clarity and creativity and actionable feel often come out of strong Soul Gardening such as Ari’s. I look forward to where this exploration leads.

Fernando Kaskais ~ is one web investigative resource for searching thousands of online sources, and public databases. Interesting variety explored with depth and verve.

Alan Houston Cree ~ Cree Solutions. A veteran turned author – Genre: Espionage. Check out Alan’s new novel in progress, and he has a solid exploration track though his interests. Substance explored. Resonates with my reasons can be wholly unreasonable. There is a Serendipity Itinerary of sorts provided as he follows where his interests takes hem, actionably. Excellent metaphor and analogy for like regardless of topic agreement or not. Check out his site for some serendipity specific to the work he is producing.

Ritish Sharma ~ Aspiring Blog, Weekly Wisdom. Another great blog posting serendipitously about things in the world that interest him. Diverse and varied. Cherry-pick your next field trip from this wonderful buffet of posts.

Jiji, Life in Copenhagen ~ Life in Copenhagen, Denmark, after moving during Covid-19. Wonderfully well-written pieces about the experience of place. Well worth a visit! Jiji has a knack for describing place that is alive.

Mandy Froehlich ~ Divergent EDU. Leadership, Innovation and Divergent Teaching | Mandy Froehlich. Administering perspectives on mental health to foster healthy well-being. This is truly a site where knowledge IS power. Not pedantic. Not corrective. Shame doesn’t exist here. Experience and powerful perspectives of listening live here. Mandy’s site is as enjoyable as it is informative. Self Help may want to watch out, as Mandy is playing the resonant chords to own what you feel, and actionably work with that wise in time.

Sandra ~ Into the Light Adventures. By Sandra Js Photography – Make the rest of your life the best of your life.

cocinaitaly ~ Elganspo, comida italiana. Hungry? Hungry for edible beauty, aesthetic eats? Exquisite is a word. Edibly exquisite is two words. Grab a friend, and go experience this. What will your words be afterwards?

Hailletrimbolie ~ Empowered Educator. It feels like she has listened to Moira and her internal sense of time and timing to start her blog. Good stuff there just in the listening to one’s own rhythms and messages. Enjoy Haille’s garden as it grows, becomes perennial, and naturalizes. I for one am looking forward to see where she takes her adventure.

Scott Spillman ~ The Point Magazine. New article, Charismatic Models.(My words follow, these are not Scott’s or the Magazine’s) I loathe politics as the great irony of our time, maybe any time when people who are not personally sovereign can be ruled simply by the sniff of a suggestion. This, is not that.

Joy Vernon ~ Completely Joyous. Tarot & Reiki. Bookmarked for this week as there’s an ICANN issue pending. I’ve been there. I hate it when that periodic email required to confirm your URL ownership with ICANN for your website gets buried and lost. I’ll most likely have an operable link here next week if not before.

Benebell Wen ~ author + reader. Such a wonderful discipline of the ritual in Benebelle’s actioanable and exploratory process of deck creation of her 3rd edition of SKT. Check out Benebelle’s site. She is an engaged and informed artist fully immersed Actively in The Work and also in the not-knowing, and building value when she emerges her creations.

Robert Ruiz ~ Robert Ruiz Art. Robert Ruiz is an artist from Brownsville, TX, who is also a Master of Fine Art Candidate at the University of Texas at Rio Grande Valley with Bachelors of Fine Art, concentration in Drawing and New Media, from the University of Texas at San Antonio. He is also currently the Art Director at the Carlotta Petrina Museum and Artist liaison for the City of Brownsville Mural Program. Check out his work.

Banter Republic ~ Gottfried. It’s just banter. Banter, comedy, humor, lifestyle, Living. He might even ask you if a period can be italicized. Be entertained and engaged. No hidden Oz behind the curtain here.

Theresa, Soul Gatherings ~ Spiritual Moments in the Human Experience. Wonderful quotes and perspective here. A great daily.

Gabriela M. ~ Short Prose Fiction. Author of the Year (2019) at Spillword Press NYC. You can swim in these words. Take a dip.

Carsten Wieland ~ Brushpark Watercolors ~ Aquarelle und Zeichnungen von Carsten Wieland. Power in color and fluid forms here. Please visit this wonderfully powerful feast for the eyes and process expressed with watercolors.

RoadtirementTraveling and retired. This couple and their experiences and travels and family… just make me smile. Real and robust for being themselves. Plus, they’re gardeners. What ever could go wrong? Great sense of humor and wonderful outlook on life. Woo Hoo shout-out to the Roadtirement Etsy shop! Check it out.

Tutu’s edible logic ~ Food makes sense. Exquisite and intelligent and nourishing and informative.

Wander the Lines ~ Step into my reading life. Looking for a new book to read? Stop in here for a treat and a great perspective.

Delusional Bubble ~ Life is a bubble, Make it as delusional as possible. Travel the world. I feel Rick Steves is cool, and he’s also not the only game in town.

Joanne Sprott ~ Cosmic Whispers. Let’s Walk the Spiral Path Together. Poetry, depthful thought, and generally all things Joanne = things that matter and have substance and are important and/or are simply interesting.

Learn Tarot: Naima Healer ~ Self-Healing through the Present Moment. Wonderful work with a just as wonderful Hoo Doo deck. Naima has just started out blogging, and I firmly feel she started out on just the right foot. Sensitive, sensible with wit and wisdom not disconnected from lineage. She may have just started blogging, though she’s no novice Reader.

Bonnie Cehovet ~ Flash Fiction. Author. Tarot. Consummate Reviewer. Want a solid story? Bonnie’ll get your there. Bonnie has a way about only working with things she resonates with. She doesn’t do negative reviews, understands that that is a waste of her blessings and value. I beyond resonate with and respect that. What’s the point of non-things? CHeck out good things here.

Croque-Melpomene ~ Author of Within Paravent Walls. Pentalingual Idealist. Writer of psycho-corporeal Poetry. Creator of Croque-Melpomene & Les Femmes de la Décadence. Chthonic Numinosity, depth with no fear of addressing behemoth-level emotional topics through her poetry and evolved wonderment and continual curiosity. She runs deep, and takes the proper gear to do so… herself. I see a chthonic numinosity in her poetry that is akin to night and day stained glass. Well worth the visit. Powerful. Intense. Heartfelt. I advise to bring tissues for all the right reasons.

Saania2086 ~ Philosophy is all about being curious, asking basic questions. And it can be fun! If P, then Q. If you want good sense, then go here to see what dynamic mind dish is being served up today.

Jane Lurie Photography ~ powerful, evocative freeze-frames of architectural images that are definitely not secretly active. These images live out loud! They are refined. And they are as natural as they are refined, like an exquisitely cut emerald or sapphire or ruby kind of refined. There’s nothing hidden in the rough here. These beauties have some pipes in their visual voice.

Timothy Price ~ Off Center & Not Even. Is variety the spice of life? Go here and see! The photography is magnificent.

Mary K. Greer’s Tarot Blog ~ Tarot helps you meet whatever comes in the best possible way. Mary matters. Professionally. As a person. As an author. Mary matters. Sweet and direct and courageous and inventive and FUN. Oh, she was a wicked cool sense of humor. Many deep wells feed Mary’s work. Warning: Immersion here may lead to ablution.

Enchanted Seashells by Princess Rosebud ~ Beguiling pearls of wit, wisdom, and whimsy-with attitude. I’m not going to add more words to that. If that doesn’t grab you… A Princess is simply a Queen not yet sitting..

Dr. Eric Perry ~ Psychology to Motivate | Inspire | Uplift. Wonderfully full and relevant and engaged Psychology articles with clarity of voice. I full-on dig when things are as robust as they are clear, especially when directly dealing with intensities. This site, is certainly that.

The Dihedral ~ More than just climbing. A lot more. And, climbing is a lot in itself. Read a new route today at The Dihedral. Dammit! No, not wormsign. Worse. The covert Covid-19 struck again. Visit The Dihedral for a seriously wicked and wonderfully solid attitude of Not Wasting Trouble.

Cristian Mihai ~ Professional Blogger. Sense & Sensibility meets the info age? He’s not afraid to say it, whatever he says. No walking on eggshells here, well, unless he starts making compost for the garden. Excellent tips for bloggers and thinkers and feelers.

Susi Bocks ~ I Write Her. My words for Susi’s writing go something like this. You talk a good game, Dood, but can you (Susi) Bocks? Concise might even be too long a word. The consistency of depth here is… well, I have a deep respect for how much she does with so little and its never sparse. Muscular and powerful language. I’d call her the Bruce Lee of words.

The Alchemist’s Studio ~ Raku, vessels, Alchemy in action. Pottery with heart and soul PLUS some PUNitive humor to boot. Don’t miss the Hens! Another place of great perspective.

Enjoy the DNA of our Solar System as it moves along its 230-million year orbit around our Milky Way galaxy. Credit to A.T. Mann for sending me this years back when he was a guest on my Inner State Highways internet TV show. Hmmm, I miss doing that. Well, I might want to do something about that…

This is such a cool creation about the larger creation we live our own orbits within, and looks like the DNA orbits within us as well. Go figure. Know thyself and know the universe just took on a simple tone as well.

Helix and DNA strands anyone? There’s such a wonderful Who let the dogs out? Us, our world and solar system itself in orbit.

Solar System & DNA

May you fill your spaces with the honest and and real feelingsense of your intensities as you sync you up with You. Maybe sync up with yourself and balance your Inner Rhythmic Equations little Aquarian style eccentricity in your creative crucible this weekend.

What Does The Natural Rhythm of the Music of Your Moira Internal Sense of Time Feel Like, Sound Like, Look Like?

Thanks for Trekking Serendipity Itineraries

Coming Very Soon!!

KintsuKuroi of Self Readings for Your Inner Golden Splendor to flow up and fill the fault lines between tectonic life-shifts. Kintsukuroi, the Art of things being more valuable for having been broken, put back together with the gold lacquer of connections in celebration of the experiences. Kintsukuroi You as only you can. Kintsukuroi of Self Readings coming soon.

Your Life, Your Way

Have a Wonderful Weekend & a Great Week!!

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I’m honored that 2 card images from my Tarot in the Land of Mystereum deck + book box set published by Schiffer are featured in Taschen’s new Library of Esoterica by Jessica Hundley

LIbrary of Esoterica by Jessica Hundley. Taschen Books, 2020

Trace the hidden history of Tarot in the first volume from TASCHEN’s Library of Esoterica, a series documenting the creative ways we strive to connect to the divine. Artfully arranged according to the sequencing of the Major and Minor Arcana, this visual compendium gathers more than 500 cards and works of original art from around the world in the ultimate exploration of a centuries-old art form.

(C) 2020 Jessica Hundley, Taschen Books


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20 responses to “SI: 9/25 Serendipity Itinerary

  1. Enchanted Seashells by Princess Rosebud

    September 24, 2020 at 7:42 pm

    Don’t know about anyone else but it wasn’t a good day today. I’m a little Erin Brockovich whistleblower on a project in my city and it’s been exciting, that’s cool, but then got a hoover email from the one who triggers my PTSD so that has a physical effect on me that takes days to clear. I literally do not understand why anyone would want to pull the wings off of a butterfly.

    • Jordan Hoggard

      September 24, 2020 at 8:00 pm

      A(wo)men to your Erin Brockovich whistleblower, and I hear you on the day’s qualities. I was immersed in work, so somewhat insulated though I could feel the wolves at the door so to speak of The Moon, Jupiter, Pluto, and Saturn all in a close grouping in Capricorn. Very Saturnian Harsh quality flowing over through the other three.

      I just didn’t answer the door and let them move on along to bully elsewhere, though I mined their pockets to line my own a bit as the turnabout felt to be fair play, consequences of the unwelcome knocks. It felt like a day where if someone opened with a knock knock joke that my 1st inclination would be to say, “Door’s open,” to shut it down.

      I’m sorry to hear that one of those types who viscerally triggers you where the concussion of the impact reverberates across several days. That butterfly torture image is powerful, and not in any good way whatsoever literally and/or metaphorically. The weakness of cruelty is such an abomination of an effort. And, who could do that to Beauty? That That it is an outrage is what comes to mind in regards to pulling the wings off a butterfly.

      • Enchanted Seashells by Princess Rosebud

        September 24, 2020 at 9:45 pm

        Thank you, it’s been a struggle. I told him that once, that what he had done was so very cruel, I am a true innocent, to pull the wings off…and I don’t think he’s capable of comprehending, a narcissist /ZERO empathy for anyone but himself. Always the victim. I don’t know how to permanently cut the psychic cords/trauma bonds, not after 29 yrs. With all the planetary stuff going on on top of personality disorders, I think I’ll just stay home and make more mini-chimes for my fairy garden hahaha. Stay strong and healthy yourself!

        • Jordan Hoggard

          September 24, 2020 at 10:14 pm

          Can you simply cease all contact with him? May sound deceptively simple, though regardless of encumbrances or responsibility or pets or even children, it sounds Like an unhealthy drag. Are you able to cut the contact and specifically block the number(s) email(s)? Those kinds of people tend to orbit back around every 2-3 months like clockwork, and I will say you have zero responsibility to respond at all. Ever.

          Is that an option? If not, is it doable to make it one?

          • Enchanted Seashells by Princess Rosebud

            September 24, 2020 at 11:24 pm

            I have, I have told him that I will get a restraining order because he was showing up uninvited and with gifts, and calling incessantly — (he had a real psychotic break a couple months ago) and it slowed down his communications, but every 3weeks he’ll still contact me and it’s not enough harassment to get a TRO but I get affected emotionally. I do not respond, I am completely no contact, but I keep them in case I need them for the TRO. I have an attny that will do it no problem but I really just want him to stop. We have no minor children, he did what he did, destroyed our family, and I accept that. What he really wants is me PLUS all the others and can’t accept my NO means NO. So sorry to vent!

            • Jordan Hoggard

              September 24, 2020 at 11:38 pm

              It sounds to me like I would recommend that you needn;t keep the contacts anymore. Sounds like you have plenty for a fact structure for your atty? Invoke the TRO and move on. Cur. Cut the cords legally, and let others take responsibility for the situation.

              No problem you venting. None at all. When it’s time, it’s time. It does, though, sound like it’s time to let your (atty) allies take the wheel and drive him right out of your life.

              You have a beautiful way about you. Mermaids. Gardens. I bet the Mermaids would have already made him fish food. Kudos for sticking in there, though… does sticking in there translate into taking responsibility for things you shouldn’t? Delegate it to your Attorney(s) and be done with it. It obviously upsets you, and if you continue to allow that, then YOU are continuing to allow it regardless of who has responsibility for instigating it.

              Does that make sense?

            • Jordan Hoggard

              September 24, 2020 at 11:44 pm

              ANd, the gifts. Oh boy. Always the gifts, as if he isn’t enough on his own. That sounds like a full-on Angler Fish. OHHHHH Shiny! And, then gulp, back into the poison stomach.

              I made an Empathic SIlence Mirror one year when my situation was both a Her and her Daughter of same. I am more thankful for that moment than most any other. ALL them. Their words. No affect on me. No cause for me to affect a role in that context anymore.

              I say =, engage your attorney(s) and be done with it. Isn’t it simply holding you back? If so, that’s now on you. You have zero responsibility to engage things that are not healthy for you, regardless of how much sense they make. Your truth is not in the hands of others, though I sense it is being fondled by him. And, that’s not acceptable, is it? Your NO means… nothing other than Get Out. Play the horror movie, GET OUT. Along with your attorney(s)… bye bye to that detriment?

            • Enchanted Seashells by Princess Rosebud

              September 25, 2020 at 10:28 am

              The only issue tying us at all is that I am dependent on his financial support. Thanks to him, I never worked, only supported his businesses. Im sure it was part of his control issues, but hindsight and all that. That is his only thread to me. If only I had my own source of income but I don’t. I still don’t have to talk to him, but that makes him feel entitled to manipulate me. I am so so sorry you have had a similar experience. Only those of us who have endured this hell can understand it. That’s for sure. I’ve had enough therapy and done enough research to comprehend people like that but when you are a real person with real emotions and ability to really connect, it’s HELL. Again, thank you for letting me vent and I’m sorry if my story triggered you.

            • Jordan Hoggard

              September 25, 2020 at 11:40 am

              You’re most welcome. Better to vent than stuff. Gotta keep the insides fresh.

              Oh, that’s the only issue? That’s a big cord to you are the balance once it is cut to pre-assure you are on your feet when you do. If you decide to build a self-support system so you can uninstall the cord, please accept my compliment to your courage. It takes courage for you to live and endure in that kind of connection where it’s dependent rather than interdependent.

              Not to worry, no trigger over here. My several years of that + 3+ years of Brainspotting has me in a place around those kind of people where I have empathy and compassion for them as … as Robin Williams out it, “they may need it the most,” THOUGH personally, for me, it helped me develop an awareness to sniff it out and do my level best to steer clear… as, the best way to argue a Narcissist is… to not do so. They’re like the Tar Baby in the Brer Rabbit story. Once touched, it’s damn difficult to get that stuff off. I see how that puts you in a precarious position. I will say, though, you DO have your garden, flowers, and butterflies. I think I learned more from my garden than I ever did from any teacher.

            • Enchanted Seashells by Princess Rosebud

              September 25, 2020 at 12:31 pm

              Thank you so much for your wise words. I have a friend who told me about brainspotting, so you’re the second one. I am working very hard to heal from what happened. Any and all suggestions are helpful. Hindsight again, but if only I hadn’t devoted my entire life to him and supporting his ideas, I could have been financially independent. It’s what I tell young people now. Oh well. It’s me that needs to learn how to handle the triggers; I gave up trying to help him or get him to go to a psychiatrist or a shaman or a neurologist a long time ago. It is what it is. There must be a lesson for me in it that I’m not learning. I’ll try harder.

            • Jordan Hoggard

              September 25, 2020 at 12:49 pm

              You’re most welcome. Maybe trying harder is part of the problem? In Brainspotting, it’s when I relaxed, let go, literally surrendered and only listened in Empathic Silence (my phrase, nothing official in the Psych community to my knowledge) when… that’s when things opened up infinitely, and at the same time became almost literal and simple and clear. I’d be curious what your experience of it would be. It took about 3 sessions for me to get out of my head and also simply acclimate out the primal distrust of something new. It’s when I realized that rather than resisting letting this Brainspotting thing in through my Inner Castle Walls… “OH! Duh. Lol, Why Am I closing myself of from myself?” BOOM, the 1st Part just appeared. There’s a wonderful book I recommend by Richard C. Schwartz and Internal Family Systems, “You Are The One You’ve Been Waiting For.” Here’s a link to it on Amazon.


              Yes, glad you gave up trying to help him, and help yourself to your own inner self-support instead. Good for you.

            • Enchanted Seashells by Princess Rosebud

              September 25, 2020 at 5:01 pm

              Thank you, I’ll check that book out asap!

            • Jordan Hoggard

              September 25, 2020 at 8:44 pm

              Excellent. It’s one of the only one of its type I recommend. Reading it is almost like, “Of course! Though wait, I already knew That…” Oh, it’s almost so simple that whether I knew ot or not, it gave me a whole different perspective and tool set from the subtle shift of perspective. It intensely dials in, and continues to provide many wonderful Self-experience assets.

            • Enchanted Seashells by Princess Rosebud

              September 25, 2020 at 8:56 pm

              What an awesome testimonial!

            • Enchanted Seashells by Princess Rosebud

              September 25, 2020 at 8:58 pm

              OMG the price for the book on Amazon is $39, I’ll try to find it somewhere else, that’s a bit pricey for me.

            • Jordan Hoggard

              September 25, 2020 at 9:04 pm

              I saw it for like $15-$21 somewhere. I’ll see if I an find the link. It was like $60+ on their direct site.

            • Enchanted Seashells by Princess Rosebud

              September 25, 2020 at 9:06 pm

              Thank you!

            • Jordan Hoggard

              September 25, 2020 at 9:08 pm

              On their site, $25

              It’s always been pricey, though the value is worth it. It’s not just another self-help book. I found it to be self-support.

  2. Holly Troy

    November 5, 2020 at 12:53 pm

    thanks for the share of the Halfbreeds. More lost tapes coming – of just plain old weird projects.

    • Jordan Hoggard

      November 5, 2020 at 6:22 pm

      You’re welcome. Happy to. Love the plain old weird projects. Heart and soul, rather than form and pretty, is often more evocative.


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